Wa, my aunt and my mother's eldest sister

Its a subject close to my heart but yet again something difficult to talk about. Its close to two months since she left us. A very fast exit. The last time I met her was on the 9th Febuary 2009 at Yan's house. I came with my mum and sis just for a hello visit and to thank her for helping out with Aisyah's wedding. Wa, my aunt is famous for anything traditional . She was so excited that Iwanted her to make the bunga rampai for aisyah's wedding. She brought all her relevent utensils from Alor Star. Even brought the famous basket to put the bunga rampai in for the perasap ritual which I witnessed for the first time ever. She was quite upset she couldn't do it for her first grandchild's big day. They wanted it only to be scattered on the bed. So, it was a no no from her. Oh well, times have changed....

At Yan's house, we were exchanging notes on her traditional recipes. I was frantically typing away on my pda , jotting down her famous acar recipe, her le mo kiang, halwa maskat and so on and so on. All in all i managed to extract about 11 recipes from her that day. Dont know why i did that on that day.

The next time i heard about Wa was that she lost her eyesight. From then on it was a down hill struggle for her. What i witnessed later at abg pan's place was heartbreaking. She wasn't the person i knew. She was very quiet, staring straight into space. She talked very little on that day. It was like an early goodbye . I could sense it...

Wa, my aunt has always being the vocal and strong person , if compared to her sister, my mum. My mum , she can be strict when she wants to, but , if compared to Wa, she is fragile and gentle in voice and manners. My eldest sister takes alot after my mum.

Wa's house was the first place that we stopped at when i was a newly wed. She cooked up the best food ever. My husband enjoyed her pajeri nenas. Everytime we come home to astar, we will always stop at her place ,even if it was for a short while just to say hello.She would give her bedak batu that she did on her own, a painstaking chore .

The Wa that i will always remember, is the lady who has alot to say and talk about anything and everything under the sun. She is warm and gracious . She is generous and kind. She is confident and brave and above all , she is the best aunt ever.

Wa, may you rest in peace. May Allah shower you with all His blessings . You may be gone forever, but pleasant memories of you will always remain in my mind. Al -Fathihah..

Selamat Hari Guru

Guru : dalam hasrat setinggi gunung meletak anak didik di puncak dunia, deretan onak perlu ditempuhi. ada kala dipuja puji, ada ketikanya dipandang sepi. guru adalah pendidik pada setiap detik. dia tetap bergelar guru dengan panggilan keramat cikgu , dimana dia berada. dari bermulanya kerjaya sehinggala dia telah tiada; dia tetap cikgu.

SELAMAT HARI GURU.

Dah tak terkata

What have i done to arouse such remarks from her? It was obvious that remark was meant to implicate that i was negligent in carrying out my duty. I was too stunned for words to respond accordingly. Not during a formal meeting that involved others within the district. I thought things have been resolved between number one and her and the department. Looks like i have to do some ironing out with number three and one. Who is saying what and why? One of these days I will have a showdown with her. Nevermind the consequence.

Perhaps my best and good friend has been right all this while. People with inferiority complex don't like to see others who can do their job better or perhaps even better than them!! Sheer stupidities. Itulah bangsa melayu ku. Tak pernah dan suke orang lain buat lebih baik daripadanya. Macam mana orang melayu nak maju? asyik dok tikam menikam . Kalau boleh tumbangkan bangsa sendiri tak apa. Asalkan diri sendiri disanjung oleh bangsa lain. Gara-gara nak dilabel sebagai orang yang bagus dalam PRnya. what rubbish and sheer stupidities.

Bila la boleh keluar dari kepompong ni?

Mood swings, sensitivities and stupidities

All three rolled into one. An explosive combination. And if not properly handled could lead to a more disastrous mayhem.
Sometimes it amazes me - being able to face up to certain situations with ease and gulit free conscience . But other times , that thought of could have done better, or could have handled it in a better way. A wave of guilt -filled emotions setting in. Thinking, thinking.. pondering , pondering. What the heck - sheer stupidities..
Move on, move on.

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'there u go. u really were impressive today. gd dat big boss acknowledged u. d sch will lose out if u wen into lecturing.'