Hooked, line and sinker

What is it about this drama that has got me hooked, lined and sinker? The story line? Well, i've watched many dramas with similar themes- heartbreaks and relationships etc etc.I Think its the superb acting by all the cast that makes this drama stands above all else. The facial gestures, the words uttered, precise and well meant . Subtle body language, superb cinematography and well casted. Congratulatiions to the scrip writer and the director and all involved.

I've come to the point that i've scoured all websites in search of the sinopsis to all 26 episodes. Found it at last.Read them all. Never mind if people said it'll spoil everthing. at least the ending is good. Anybody wants to know the whole storyline?

Still very sore with the tv station for not screening it last friday.They should have. With almost so many million viewers waiting anxiously to that slot,for a whole week, then to tell us, the fanatic followers that its not going to be on....imagination the frustrations one has to endure.

Well, there's alway next week, insyallah.

Pengorbanan ibu bapa semata-mata untuk anak-anak

Salam Syawal kepada semua pembaca yang menyambutnya. Bulan yang selalu dinantikan terutamanya anak-anak selepas sebulan kita berpuasa. Tapi untuk kami yang melewati umur,satu perasaan sedih dan sayu, samada akan dapat bertemu dengan Ramadhan berikutnya.

Having watched the video, terasa sangat pengorbanan yang dilakukan oleh pak dan mak. lebih-lebih lagi dengan pak sebagai punca utama mencari nafkah untuk menyara anak-anaknya seramai 9 beradik. On top of that, he had his elder brother to take care of and send money to.And yet he managed. Or did he or did he not? How did he managed? It must have been tough.

Now there is only mak .Am I making the same sacrifices as a daughter that she used to do to me? I don't think so. Am I giving enough attention as she used to do for me and my other siblings. I dont think so.

So, how can we do and what can we do. I think mak is not asking much. Just love and attention . Any gesture or deed that will make her smile is all that she is asking for. She wants to feel loved and appreciated.

Nothing in this world is big enough or important enough if compared to the scarifices and dedications of a true mother. She may not have uttered it, but her love for all her children is still strong and deep as ever.

Mak, i love and salute you.You have done well. I hope to do so too, only time will tell.

Slowly but surely

Today , i was given a room. Sharing with another lady also from kl. The room is quite spacious, but needs some dusting, feeling the itch all over. Was informed i will involved in training of new leaders. that i think is most interesting.

Thanks rufa, for your words of encouragement. Appreciate them.

I suppose it is quite normal to have doubtful thoughts. To venture into unknown territories when i should be just going with the flow in my present comfort zone.
But then again, what is life without challenges. To feel the rush of the adrenaline , the fast beating of the heart, the anxiety level shooting up and of course the sigh of relief when its all over..

Then the cycle starts all over again.

Hope i can keep this pace for the next four years.

quite kelam kabut

On first day of reporting in my new workplace, got a taste of how it feels like working outside of the school system. Maybe beacause the organisation is big, so it looks kinda of slightly unsystematic, being shuffled here and there to get things done. The officer in charge herself was a bit lost herself, not knowing what to do next. Having said that, it was a totally new experience for me.

Well, had been with mixed feelings until now. have i made the right decision in leaving my workplace. Venturing into something new at such a late age , is it worth it?

Having said that, isn't this what i have always wanted to do all this while?
Its the thought of venturing into the unknown and something new that is bugging my decision.

Gotta go on. And take it from here. I have nothing to lose. Worse come to worse, its back to the school system.

Another 4 years to go.

Allahhu Akhbar

Allahhu Akhbar. Syukur alhamdullilah. To be at one's lowest and suddenly be blessed with good tidings. Allah has answered my prayers in this holy month of Ramadhan. What more do i want. I have never really asked anything from Him in particular for myself. Has always been for good tidings for my children and loved ones.
All i needed to do was ask. Syukur alhamdullilah, it could never have come at a better time. Caught me offguard. Am still in shock.

Maybe it is no big deal to others. But to me, it is.

Its not too late to venture into new boundaries. Maybe , i will need alot of hard work at the initial stage. But i need the change to keep me going.

It is the ultimate recognition for all those months of blood, sweat and tears.

Allahu akhbar.

Not Good, Not Good At All

A lot of mixed feelings :- hurt , angry, sad, unhappy. Lowly motivated. Was informed of the current scenario amongst close ones. Low morale. Especially amongst the seniors.

The current situation could have been handled in a more delicate manner.

Everyone has their fair share of their problems. Besides work, we have our own family, our own personal life to take care of. So its so unjust to be insentitive to another human's problems. Sometimes, one need to just listen. And listen well.

Humans have feelings. To be subjected to humilation just because of some slight errors is so unjust and so clinical.

The problem was, there was no effort to understand one's surrounding. To understand "how we do things" around here. It must be understood. What works over there need not necessarily be ok here.

We are dealing with human beings, not some piece of furniture . So sit up ! See your surroundings, hear your people.

Hey, we are ok.

Asset or liability ?

Depends. But both of course.

Asset when the need arises.

Liability yes . Punching bag when things go wrong.

No one is perfect. Its only human to be imperfect. Otherwise we aren't human. And that too is very subjective .

One man's meat is another man's poison.

Very depressing to hear i didn't make it . Was hoping to get away from the current scenario.

Sometimes i wonder, all that very highly appreciative yearly assesement . Is it another charade with ulterior motives. I don't know. Very unhealthy to have doubtful thoughts and to always be looking over one's shoulder all the time. Where is the trust and good values ?

Regrets ? None at all. Grew up with working ethics that emphasised on doing things for the sake of the whole and not for personal glory. No strings attached.

What now? Time to go through the check list. Perhaps a totally new one with new itenaries.

Moral of the story?

Do what need to be done. Remember, don't overdo . Period.

30 years later

30 - a significant number.

Ist September 1979 .

Its now Ist September 2009 .

It is significant to me.

Thanks Azizah for that early morning greetings.. Appreciate it..

Wished the significant person remembered too.. Oh well.. Perhaps its insignificant to him.

Mis-Match or Mix and Match?

Has been all the while.

Throw in the towels????

Mis- match or mix and match ?

Whose point of reference ???

What now?

How significant? Or is it most unsignificant ? The XXXXXXth time? Gotta think.

Pull the plug??

Sheer abuse. Period.