You are one month old today

Dearest little Aqil.

Today is 25th Mac 2010. That means that you are one month today. You may not be able to read what your tok hajjah wan is about to write now but tok hope that in many many years to come , when you are big and strong, and able to read and understand alot of things, your mom will show this piece of snippet to you.

Tok wants to tell you that even before you were born, you were much awaited by all the Omarians.Especially by your grand aunts. They were all coining names , glamourous names so as to avoid the clise title of Tok Teh, Tok Su and so on. There was a lot of wireless communications from Subang to Kuantan to Cheras, Sentul, Bukit Jelutong and Alor Star included.

So here are the details of sms that took place between ur grandma and all her sisters. How everyone were there for your mum and me through all the difficult moments .it was exhausting but it was worth the wait.

Feb 23 2010 5.20 am : Dear all. The countdown has begun. pls say a a prayer for her. hope she'll go through this with ease and in quick time. Thanks

Atam: We r with u

Teh : Ok, noted. We will pray 4 mum n baby.

Tiza: Insyallah. Our prayers are with her.


Rufa: Insyallah

Amal: She has gone into labour

Me : Ya. Now at HKL

Atam ( 6.36am): Any sight of lil suparman yet?..tizah n i r anxious 2 make it a
double celeb.

Me ( 6:51:21 am) : She is now at HKL. When she knocked at my door, the contractions were 1 in 20 mins but not strong. that is typical us.but she is already bleeding heavily. maybe the cervix had opened quite big. am waiting for news from ali.

Aisyah ( 6:53:42 am) takde bukaan lagi..diorang tgh bincang nak masuk wad or nak suruh balik sbb wad penuh..

Me (7:38:04am) : Kalau boleh minta masuk wad . tak lama dah tu.

Aisyah (7:40:31 Am): Dah masuk. 2nd class. but nak mintak 1st class nnti.. td ist class penuh..sbb dah due kot kene masuk...doc nak check baby,..

Rufa 7;47;36 am : they should let her stay at d hosp. she is definitely due.

Me 7;51;57 am : breaking news 2. forwarded message from aisyah

Rufa 7:54:18 am : ok. thats an improvement..tq 4 update

Amir Iswadi 8.00:36 am : aisyah mcm mana?

Me 8:19:38 am : blm bersalin tapi dah masuk wad.insyallah. doakanlah di permudahkan semua urusan dia

kak 8:46:36am: ok. semoga semuanya selamat. keep me updated

Teh 6:01:29 pm : r d aunties great aunt yet?

Me : 6:33:47 pm : aisyah is being discharged. despite the blood flow and the contractions, there was no dilation at all. so will inform u of the latest when i see her in a little while

Teh 6:35 pm : ok, tq

Rufa 6:35:53 pm : tq 4 update. We will doakan dipermudahkan aisyah bsalin

Amal :6:36:02 pm : tq 4 updates. I bru bgtau Ali maybe jnr nak tgu the nenek abis kursus bru dia nak kluar

Me 7:24:42 pm : mungkin kena pecah ruyung baru keluar kot.


Feb 24 9:33:39 pm

Me : Hi dears.episose 2 chapter 1.now with aisyahat selayang hosp. thecontractions stronger and dilation is 3cm. called up 2 private hosp. reluctant to admit her cos no medical record with them. took her at 4 am, she didn't sleep at all. am very anxious for her.

Rufa 9;36;21 am insyallah u will be tok by 2day. she must be very tired. poor girl. r u there 2 give morale support?

Tiza 9:36:46am - our prayers are with u and her.

Me 9;37 :14am - ya. hope to be able to enter labour room.

Teh 9:38:01am :-ok take care 2 grdma n niece

Me 9:38:06am - thanks. she is sitting on d chair. no bed yet.

Amal 9:39:19am - ouw ok. insyalllah. u also need to practise breathing with her then.

Me 9:40:37 am- no bed yet. she is sitting on d chair. told her to rest and try to get some sleep

Amal 10:03:13am - CNY babies, haha

Kak 10:05:17am - chapter 2. will b with u shortly

Kak 11:28:36 am - plan to go. is aishah in labour ward?

Me 11:33 17am - aisyah has gone into the waiting ward but no sign of her. dont know what is happening

Me 11: 41: 14am - . kak i think u tak payah mai lagi sbb u x boleh naik atas ke sini. only husband and mother shj. i will inform u when its over. thanks.

kak 11: 44 :13am - thanx. infact i took overdose of anti histamine last nite. now trying to keep my eyes open

Me 11:44: 49am - take a good rest

kak 11: 50: 09 am - let me know when u have a new chapter

Me 11: 50 :42am - will do

Amal 12: 04: 05pm - how's aisya how r u?

Teh 12: 05 :23 pm - aiya,dnt want tok la, na teh 4 me. evrybdy na la.na wa, na tam, na tizah, nacippa, na cu, d guys can carry d tokngah n tok man, hw abt it

me 12 :07 :54 pm- no sign of her. i am all nerves

Amal 12 :09: 38pm - ouw. dah dpt katil or dah masuk labour room?

Me 12 :10: 48pm - not yet. still 3 cm dilation. she wants me to go home

Amal 12: 16 :25pm - ouw. masih 3. hmm lama jugak ek.

Me 12:18: 43 pm - just like me. but it can suddenly dilate in within a couple of hours

Me 2: 16: 30 pm - missed ur call. was praying. now baru dpt masuk ke wad bersalin. they broke her bag at 4 cm dilatiion around 1 pm tadi

Aziz 3: 31 :19pm - better still paati wa, paati ngah,paati lang, paati tam, paati teh,paati zah (oyoyo all this while tizah is the short for paati zah...hahaha paati pa and paati cu. as for the male omarian we will go with the tok pnya title..hihihi

kak 3: 47 :37pm - which chapter now. ya allah tiada sesuatu yg mudah melainkan kau permudah kannya. amin

Me 3 :49 :15pm - chapter 1 episode 3 ; finally got a bed at 130 pm. burst the water bag at that time too. she asked for epidural.approx time of delivery 6 hrs after that. am home to take a nap.

Aziz 3: 51: 56 pm - congrats tu paati and new mum. boy or girl?

Amal 3: 52: 10 pm - ouw ok. yeah have a rest. so she got the epidural?

kak 3: 55: 40 pm - take care

Tiza 3: 56: 01 pm- u think u r so smart lah; if we r paati, u guys r anir ngah n anir ma. ayo ayo ada lu jugak

Me 3 :56: 11pm - not yet

Aziz 3 :59 :16 pm - sorry false alarm. i misread your statement regarding the 6 hours. my thousand apology

Rufa 4: 07: 44pm - i guess d excitement to terima our first cucu n cicik for mak got us figuring out d best glamorous gelaran 4 uncles n aunties.d lucky kid is sure lucky to have us eh.belum bjumpa lagi dah surrounded by all d love.

Ali 5: 43:33 pm - doc blm cek lg.. lepas epidural trs boleh sengih.. br bole brcakap. setakat ni sumer ok. nnt after doc cek sy habaq mai..

Me 5 :44: 16pm - ok

Me 5:50: 10 pm - chapter 1 episode 4 . message drm ali 5 mins ago ;doc blm cek lg.. lepas epidural trs boleh sengih.. br bole brcakap. setakat ni sumer ok. nnt after doc cek sy habaq mai..

Teh 5 :52: 23 pm - ok

Rufa 5: 53 :24 pm - amboi, he is trying to speak utara. sounds cute. got side track, good to hear that she is better although must be tired n anxious

Me 5 :54: 33 pm - maintain cool the father to be. its the grandma to be who is palpitating like crazy

Amal 5 :55: 29pm - ok, i can juz picture her tsengih on the bed

Rufa 5: 59: 52pm - hope u not having contractions too. u may need d epidural too. he he

Aziz 6 :00 :15pm - ok. thanks

me 6 00 53 more of extra dose of my pressure pills

amal 6: 01: 07pm :- dont forget the jeling2

Aisyah in the labour room

tiza 6: 38 Pm :- buat album rakamsemua detik2. as 4 aisyah; siap bt sign peace lagi, nw it looks like she is ALL 2 comdfortable, no urgency 4 lit A

teH 8: 08 :45Pm : - little ali out?

me 8 :10 :09 pm :- not yet mah. baru 6 cm dilated

Teh 8: 24 :36 pm :- oh my gdness, lamanya. take care.

0122175200 9: 37: 52 pm: - salam, mak lang, how's aisyah doing?

me 9: 39: 06:- still in labour room. belum dengar apa2 dari ali lagi.

me 10 :14 :46 pm : -mcm mana perkembangan terkini? mesti dah letih aisyah lama sangat

ali 10: 19 :06 pm : - 9 .30 td br 7 cm..hmm..ntah la mak..ni doc tgh reload epidural...

me 10: 20 :57pm :- insyallah tak lama lagi tu. tell her to hang in there. rehatkan diri.

kak 11: 24: 41:- are u still at selayang hosp. hoping that we ar in the final chapter.

Feb 25 2010

Ali 2.45 am dah selamat.. jam 130 am

Me 2 45 54 alhamdullilah

me 2: 59: 53 am: - Dear all. aisyah selamat bersalin at 130 am tadi.

rufa 3 :02 :08 am:- alhamdullilah tok. tahniah ali, aisyah n tok sam

teh 3: 02: 49 am:- alhamdullilah syukur, a very long labor, all is fine with baby, mother n grandma. cnngrat kakchick, officially tok nw.

me 3 :04 :48 am:- alhamdullilah. tq tok teh

me 3 :05: 32am :- tk tok cikfa

teh 3 :06 :37a m :-ok, take a gd rest, c u soon.

rufa 3: 06 :52:- :-):-)

kak 5: 58 :38: am:- syukur

kak 5: 59: 35am :- syukurALHAMDULLILAH

aziz 6 :42: 02 am :- alhamdullilah. boy or girl?

me 6 :42 :36 am :-boy


So little Aqil, I could never thank enough to all my sisters and brothers and sons and daughter,nieces and nephews (your grand aunts and grand uncles, your aunts and uncles), few more of my close friends . They are family , always there through thick and thin.

Both of us, tok hj sam and tok hjh wan hope you will have a wonderful future ahead . Love your mama and Ba as much as they love you.Be humble and kind to all.Love them all like they all love you. God Bless you my precious grandson.

One smart lady ( can't remember her name now) way back in the late 80s or was it early 90s wrote a book on superwoman. She wrote about how she coped with all- a married woman with kids, a career, a home to take care of and so on and on. She was then giving tips on how to keep up with all that is expected of and from any woman, married, with kids and husband, and a demanding career to top it all.

She wrote that when she was still in her early early 30s, still robust , full of energy and all.

I wonder, if she ever would like to write again.. This time in her 50s, with kids, husband, a demanding career and house to run . Will she be giving tips on how to stay robust and still churn miraculous things like she used to ?

Or will it be giving tips how to say to all - Look, I have had my time. I have done what I should have done. Now its time to call it quits. I am hanging up the towels.

Hmm.... I wonder.

Sure enough. Another day of trying to accommodate and rectify other people's mess so as to save face . Don't know what it is . But speculations and gossips and talks and discussions are all aimed at that particular spot.

All that blabbing and non stop nonsensical bleeps is getting on everyone's nerves.

Gotta practice what one preaches. walk the talk. Time to go.

The winds are blowing in all directions.

Very interesting day indeed. A mixture of productivity spilled over from yesterday's and of course very tensed moments due to the stupidity and oversight of some people.Making assumptions that someone will pick up the pieces after their shabby decisions. Man and their super bloated egos. Can't dictate them. But if they can manage its ok. Its like they can't do it at all. Can't do or don't want to make that extra effort to tidy up lose ends? Men.

So, does it mean that women are Nicky picky creatures? Perfectionist ? Not really. But trying to make sure all aspects and all angles are being looked at. So that everyone is comfortable.

Will it happen again tomorrow?

Too many things happening at the same time. Good and bad. Today my immediate boss's wife passed away after a hard battle with the big C. Apparently she happened to discover it during one of those free check up promotional gig that most health care companies do in their attempt to sell their products. She was in the fourth stage of it. She felt no pain, no changes in her body functions. Her chemotherapy sessions were unbearable. Yesterday the doctor put her on sleep sedatives to help her ease her pain. She passed away peacefully this morning. I went to pay my last respect to her this afternoon at her mum"s house. May God forgive her wrongs and may she be at peace now. Al fatihah.

The earlier bad news is still affecting me. That happened on Friday afternoon when I received news about the death of my ex colleague's only child . That was the most devastating news ever cos he was her life.To be taken away from from her at such a young life is so hard to swallow. He was only 28, just finished his houseman ship and now serving as a medical officer at one of the state's district hospital. I worry for her. How she is going to cope with this loss. Many a times we do share lots of good times discussing about our children among other things. She was looking forward to her son getting hitched and then him giving her grandchildren.

Oh well, who are we to determine the future. If we can orchestrate our lives and our deaths then we will be mentally prepared for things to happened as planned. But the Almighty has it all worked out for us all. And the Almighty never revealed anything . What we can do is pray to Him for his guidance and that we will always be in the right path. and any time we go astray we pray and asked for his forgiveness. We repent.We hope never to repeat the same mistakes again.

Life indeed is precious. And its a cycle. No one is immortal. But everyone hopes that when the time comes to leave this world, we have done enough good to deserve that reward on the Judgement Day. I hope and I pray that I will be given time to do more good, to ask for forgiveness for myself, my husband, my children and son in law, my father and mother, my brothers and sisters, my nieces and nephews , my precious grandson, my other relatives , my friends and all ..